Knock Knock where have I been? I feel like I have found myself continuously saying ” I’m trying, I am trying” but in actuality I’ve been doing and going but not taking the time to be fully present and aware. Trying sounds so tiring and without an accomplished feeling result. I am writing this of this revelation today, after a 10 minute mediation. For Cyber Monday I purchased a yearly membership to MelissaWoodHealth.com , after following her on Instagram for quite sometime I decided to plunge and pay for her health based services. One day in the next 365 I am sure we will cross paths in person, whether it be on purpose or not. Seamlessly meeting up with quasi celebrities happens to me all the time and doesn’t quite phase me. Moving forward I will blog these memorable interactions as this blog serves as a digital memory book of my life learnings and experiences.
My background with Meditation. At the University of Michigan, I enrolled in a class with Martha called Jazz 450. I took it with my sister, best friend, and a few other people we knew. Weekly we would attend class, walk outside in silence, and journal. We read a book called ” the miracle of mindfulness” by thicht nhat hahn – I highly recommend it! I felt a renewed sense of energy each week and genuinely did solo mediations when not in class. Fast forward to end of semester, graduating, and life moving on from the class. I continued a living a mindful life.
I was all about living in the moment, being in the present, only being present minded. While I thought this hyper awareness was super positive, the harsh realities of adult-ing aka planning things in advance and thinking ahead did not adhere to this in the moment vibe.
Living in Ann Arbor for 3 years after college, allowed me to pop back into Martha’s meditation classes from time to time. Overall it kept my stimulated mind focused on being mentally aware and mindful. I was (still am) the friend you call whose ready to go-go-go and participate in whatever fun activity you want to do.
There was a shift in this mentality when I moved to a more adult job in an adult world in Birmingham, MI. I now have a job that requires tons of planning ahead. Not to mention my social life and coordinating weekends with friends. As we grow older it seems everyones schedules more complex, and while not impossible it has become increasingly challenging to do spur of the moment activities. We are no longer kept in a bubble cluster that we were used to for the previous 18-22 years of our lives.
Back to meditation – Since moving to Birmingham 3 years ago, I dabbled with the headspace app and just found the robotic act of using an app on my phone as a digital distraction to the goal of meditation. Ultimately leaving me to ditch meditation all together. I am excited to get back into this journey and feel more at peace with myself.
Namastay, have a good day!